I just wanna be loved and smothered in besitos
I got my heart broken and I survived, I failed 3 courses in university and graduated, I got rejected in the very first job I applied for and got promoted yesterday, I went through hard times with my family but then two years later, we laughed our hearts out over lunch, The closest friends disappointed me several times but I made new friends and loved them with all my heart. I did it once, I can do it again.
Something everyone needs to hear. I know I needed this.
Fear
I have no clue why I’m being hit with emotions now.
Maybe it’s the hydroco I don’t know…
But my God, we just brought our new daughter home for the first time today - and I have never been more lost.
First of all~ She wasn’t a natural birth like I had with my last one - she was a last second c-section.
As much of a brave face I have put on - it is very safe to say I have been thoroughly traumatized for this birth experience: failed epidural and failure to progress past 8cm for the last hours of my labor.
And the pain after the c-section is such an awful beast to deal with. Just thinking about it while I type makes me shake.
I hate not being useful and running at 100%.
I love my husband so much. Throughout this whole nightmare he has defiantly been my lighthouse in the fog.
I’m just afraid I won’t be better in time to step up.
